Nobody follows this blog

Ha.  I don't know what the world would do with my thoughts.  It might get even more confused. Honestly.

But one of my youth whipped out a quote of mine the other day!  How awesome is that?!  I know I know... I shouldn't sit too long on a horse that's too tall for me... but still - I felt like I've actually had some good to say in my life.

The following words aren't mine.. but oh so important.... "And we'll learn learn learn... we'll wait our turn turn turn... and we'll get sick on the way by the things that people say... it'll break our hearts against the wind... but we will just keep breathing in." - sk6ers

MAN!  How beautiful.  It's so hard to wait.  But everyone has a turn to take.  Not everyone can do their favorite thing exactly when they want to do it.  Some people try regardless and end up ramming their agenda right through the middle of everyone else's life...

But I think I'm okay waiting.  My life has been an endless string of blessings.  Everything has always worked out.  And though I can't see the future, I finally feel like the best stuff is yet to come.

Just... help me to rest and stay in this.

I'll keep breathing in.  Everyday.  Regardless.  And that should be enough.

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I ran into Lonnie again yesterday.  The guy is a 2.6!  That's impressive.  You know how we're supposedly only 6 degrees of separation away from everyone in the world (on average) ((according to Kevin bacon))  Well this guy - is an average of 2.6 degrees away from everyone in the world.  Super connected.  And it has to be because he just randomly strikes up conversations with whomever is near him.

Love the people right in front of you, indeed.

It makes me wonder what kind of impression I leave behind everywhere I go.  Are people saying "Thank God..." when I finally walk away?  Are people indifferent to my appearing into their life?  Are they left intrigued and wanting more?

And how do I move from the second of those to the third?

Everyone's story deserves to be told.  I believe that.  How creepy and intrusive do I risk having to be to really extract what's in the heart of the people around me?  People do have too many walls.  But they get built up for so many reasons over years and years of whatever has happened to them.  I watched a 1 year old baby smile and run and fall into the arms of a stranger two days ago.  But this 13 year old kid I've known and talked to for a year now still has trouble trusting getting into a car with me.

A good friend of mine told me emphatically the other day... "No 13 year old kid should suffer from anxiety!"

She yelled it.

The world we know is the world we live in.  That means we take all the shit we know along with us.  I have to admit that I have no idea how God is at work in the world.  But I see clearly how I need to be at work in the world.

People everywhere - know you are loved.  And if you don't already know, I hope I meet you someday to show you.

Where does this leave us...

God seems to be an unprovable guy.  It also seems like you cannot disprove the fellow.  So where does that leave us?  Faith and belief, right?  So it would seem.

But we could all use a little bit of a reality check when it comes to belief... most of our reasoning is motivated by something either inside or outside of ourselves.  

The big dichotomy I want to cover here is whether our motivations are more selfish or selfless... 

We can believe the things we do about our world simply because they allow us to do what we want when we want without any feelings of regret.

We can also believe the things we do about our world because we've learned to look past ourselves and are able to see what's good for the world and others even if it means things get harder for us. 

...in which camp do you fall?  Maybe somewhere between the two?  How can we truly become selfless?