Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Fairy tales

I am a fighter. I'm not gon' give up. Oh wait.. that's survivor... psh. the lyrics still fit. Thanks Beyonce. By the way - you were better before you went solo.

This post is not about Beyonce. Sorry reader(s).

Life is not a formula. There is no number you can plug in for x and it automatically leads you to a reliable y. It might never just work out the way its 'supposed to'. And being frustrated with that will only leave you frustrated. You have to deal with whatever situation is at hand for what it is. Spending time wishing it was something else will never make it so. So you can ditch it... or if its worth it, face whatever messed up thing you've gotten yourself into, and make something beautiful out of it.

The only real question is... is it worth it?



Monday, March 28, 2011

John locke was a mediocre philosopher

People love chapters. When reading a book, people have a goal - to finish it. Simple. But in each book each chapter is a goal in of itself. It's a stopping point. A place to sit back relax for minute and reflect on what the hell just happened. It's interesting to me that this metaphor gets carried into the life of most every person. We label our life in chapters. Kid, adolescent, high school, college, adult, parent, old, older... It's like we have a bunch of mini, beta version lives.

I'm not sure if I like this mentality.

On one hand, a nice place to sit back relax and reflect on what you've been through is essential and quite nice... however chapters seem to indicate everyone's obsession with starting over. A clean slate if you will - or if you won't, it matters not to me. I'm convinced that where our lives end up is a summation of every decision we make along the way. A book would be much less interesting to finish if none of its chapters had anything to do with each other. So, as much as we see our lives as stages, and sections, and chapters - we don't ever really start over. We only ever move on.

The human mind is kind of a neat thing.

It allows us to look back into experiences we've had AND allows us to imagine a future we've never actually experienced. This is phenomenal. In a few seconds, we can see who we used to be, be, and try and figure out how to be the person we'd like to end up being.

And every part of our lives conditions us for the next part. In all the good and bad ways.

I never get to start over, because I am built on who I used to be. And every decision I make now leads me to where I'll will be when I'm dead. Simple concept. Sounds like a Rascal Flatts song really...

But as long as I am intending on ending up in some sort of specified way. I won't ever get there relying solely on intention. If I want to be the type of person who gives a damn... then I need to start giving a damn now.

I can't just want it bad enough for it to happen.

So this is where it starts.